Friendship Afterwards
2003-07-30 - 8:32 p.m.
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Probably should stop quoting Girl Aflame, but she's just said a couple of things that have struck chords in me. Here's another:
It intrigues me that I really don't want to lose him. I guess the biggest thing is, I don't want to lose our friendship, and I'm very scared that when we stop dating our friendship will be a casulty of it.
Just remembering when I had those thoughts. When I swore that, regardless of what happens, we'd always be friends. We just “clicked” with each other so well, and cared for each other so much. Even if love faded, there'd always be that affection....
It didn't quite work out that way. Nothing ever does, but this is about as far as you can get away from “the plan” as possible. There can never be friendship.
Everything seems possible when you're deluded by love. You mean it at the time, of course, but when things change....the motivations and justifications for those pronouncements no longer exist. What replaces it more than counterbalances that affection and regard.
I just remember all the times that conversation passed between us. I remember how I felt. I can remember certain instances in clarity.
I remember what I had. I remember living in bliss. I remember how I felt.
Too bad that, now, in the aftermath, I don't want to.
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